I haven’t posted in my blog for a while so I thought I’d give everyone an update. My life has been uncharacteristically boring. But boring is what I need right now. Last year was too crazy with the incident back home, suddenly moving (hitchhiking) across the country, and that weird job I applied for but didn’t get.
I’ve settled into my job at the tanning salon. It’s been pretty uneventful—unless you count the time some guy peed in the tanning bed. Steve’s Dad said it happens a lot. It turns out I’m a decent sales person, and I’ve been making some commissions on product sales. Most of it goes to Steve for back rent, but it feels good to make a little money.
I haven’t been writing as much as I’d like, but I posted a short story last week. Steve actually read it, which was cool of him. I don’t think he liked the story but he was more supportive than usual, and he hasn’t really been a dick lately. I guess me having a job has eased some tensions in our relationship.
As for my novel, I’m only 1,200 words in and I’m already stuck. After finishing my obsessively detailed outline I changed the profession of the main character from a fashion designer to a model. The change makes her motivation stronger and now the plot makes more sense but I don’t feel like I know the character any more. I don’t have a sense of her, and I’m not having that problem with the other characters.
What should I do? Should I just write through the uncertainty and let the protagonist’s essence emerge? Or should I find a way to figure her out now?